I'm so confused.
I am so unsure of what I really want.
I know I want to love, and be loved.
But, will I really get that with the direction I'm going?
I don't want to feel used.
I want a best friend, a lover. I've got that with TM.
I just can't help but wonder if he still feels the same.
I just wish he'd talk to me about how he feels.
Look forward to talking to him, and he's a jerk. Hmmmph. Love that feeling, fucking love it.
I've also realized that I seriously need to rethink the way I'm living my life.
Making some changes. Going out to Midland tomorrow morning, to go to church. Yep, you read it right.

On a more serious note, I'm working on writing something meaningful. It's harder than I had imagined. Taking lots of time, and putting lots of thought into it.